The end

in one nigth

So this is it my dream is over, now I don't have to worry about poker anymore, only what the best way would be to suicide

16 December + $1.56

Win/loss: + $1.56
BB: 78.00
BB/100: 17.85
Hands: 437
MT: 4 tables

need to play MORE TIME AND HANDS plus to focus more

15 december +0.13

Win/loss: euros 0.13
BB: 6.50
BB/100: 1.48
Hands: 438
MT: 2 - 4 tables

2922 hands missing, euros tables are sooooooo NIT

Poker players by the rage comics

for some competition

Next 7 days - to boost bankroll to NL25 limit

Yeah if you stop playing for one day poker you lose discipline, at leats for me that happend and what 3 days without poker? Lazy buster, now back on truck with casual week goals, I have only 8 pounds left in my acount and I'll move to play on euros tables only - bigger risk to lose everything, but bigger posibility to earn more, two weeks only left till my final deadlien to have 1250 $, also one more new think - every morning before starting sessions I'll watch learning videos about tournaments, they are my last hope and also I'll start to watch game theory courses on evenings after midnigth and when I'll finish blogging, they can be very useful, but basicly I'll stil lstick to the same schedule - http://superhugefish.blogspot.com/2011/12/im-back-and-im-more-empowered-than.html that I promised to myself to have till I'll reach 1250 $ So goals in terms of days will be like that"

15-22 to earn 625

15 thursd (14 val.)- 4 tables - 3360 hands
16 Friday (14val.) - 5 tables - 4900 hands
17 saturday (12val.) 6 tables 4900 hands + 1 tournament VIP 1000 freerol
18 Sunday (10 val. training + 2 tournament)
19 Monday (10 val cash + 2 tournament) 4000 hands
20 Tuesday (14 val.) 6 tables 5600 hands
21 wendesday (14 val.) 6 tables 5600 hands
22 thursday (14 val.) 6 tables 5600 hands

total - 33960 cash hands/ 5 tournaments
money goals 100 euros from NL2 cash + 500 dollars from 5 tournaments

Rules:
every 90 minutes to have a break !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
every morning - one tournament learning video, every evening - one game theory video
fold after c-bet if I have nothing

10 December -3.69$

Win/loss: -3.69$
BB: -184.50
BB/100: -21.30
Hands: 866
MT: 4 tables

Back to where I've been two days ago, huh?

Good news The most of my lost happend because of my fault, so that means that to win still posible I just need to strength my discipline and game by the strategy. I finished to listed Poker mindset audiobook. UNBELIEVABLE good book, really the second the best book that you will ever read/listen in you poker career, i again relearn and understand deeper the importance of patience in poker, theb ook taugth alot about how not to tilt, how always think about long run instead of short wins, how the most importan is the best move and result is irreliaviant and how rollercoaster of winning is the part of poker and need to be calm and wait whil fro long run all the money come back to me, also bad beats? should be happy that bad players wins cause that only will encourage them to play bad again and also I should figth againts temptation to do the same and keep solid game.
Also I sold my photo camera today and got some money so I'll buy some food and my startvation will end, probably that will help to be productive and maybe some electricity cards so I ll be insurant fro mrunning out of electricity and I'll keep the chance to play even 48 hours in a roll
Bad news I have only 16 days left to reach 1250 $ and still on NL2, can it be more embaracing? Pokerstrategy still doesn't work, but I'm thinking to switch to HM2 only when I'll reach Nl4
I need to improve Grind more my games, when river comes a card that can finish flush I should check/fold when I bluff c-bet and get call and have nothing - check/fold I have to beack on my schedule, now I agai nstay up at nigths and sleep at day time, with 4 tables I should play minimum 2000 hands per day, very undiscipline in terms of timetabling. Also have finnaly to take seriuosly 6 minutes break each 90 minutes
What's next? I'll play all nigth on European tables, hoping that nigth factor will benefit me and find some tigther players.. I'll finish if i win +5 pounds (14 in total )then all sunday studying tournaments and at 18:00 coacihin session at 21:00 to play two tournaments +0.5 buy inn. Hoping to win 40$ from both in total. Tournaments now is my last hope to cath up with deadline .....

9.12 +2.08 $

Win/loss: 2.08$
BB:104.00
BB/100: 18.71
Hands: 556
MT: 4 tables

Couldn't avoid a sligth tilting at the end.. played marginal situation plus suckouts and here you go :((

8.12 +2.42

Winn/Loss: $2.42
BB: 121.00
BB/100: 8.52
Hands: 1420
MT: 4 tables
had some suckouts, bad play hands ect. but in totally I'm doing a good progress in disciplining myself and playing solid conservative game

Hud stats
Had a problem with elepehant which showin numbers for wrong players so I'm playing with no HUD stats, it's so frustrating and I believe I lost because of that too, because can't identify either I'm againts tigth or loose player. If tomorrow it won't fix himself and I won't get any help fro msupporting teams I will switch to free trail of Holdem Manager

Audio Books I found out that it's much better to listen audio books than music while I'm playing in terms of keeping me focus and not bored. Audio books do not put me so on emotions like music and also makes my brains to work, because you need to listen and keep with a book, so my brains are in work position and that helps also to keep shape attention on tables plus I'm learning something on that time while listening so it is really usefull

Go for good hand not good profit
Finnaly I'm starting to understand the most improtant rule of poker - you have to make a good moves, the result than is irreliavant, you may loss in a short term but good moves in averange win in long term, so i have to go for good playing and forget the profit. Ofcourse when you set up youresl to live from poker it's hard not to hink about them, but I must, money will come as long as I will think about good plays instead of how much I'm earning

I'm back and I'm more empowered than before

So I wasn't blogging for a whole week and my poker career stucked again.. december 5 was a deadlien for me to reach 100$ but I still have just 10 $ so what was going? Since last session i got crushed for a day and couldn't play then I got sick and needed to stay in bed for few days and in the last 3 days i was back on studying fundamentals of MSS strategy, I'never studies so much in a day like those past days, I attended coaching sessions, finish begginers exam course, watched ALL videos about MSS on pokerstrategy (almost 20 hours material) played some tournaments and that made me realize some of my mistakes and come out with a new schedule and some new playing rules. first of all schedule:

THIS IS MY FINAL SCHEDULE i will not change it till I will reach 1250$ + 600$ for living there is some special points that updaded my previuose schedule: 1. I put coaching sessions, very important and help to develope and get back on a discipline good poker level or to keep it 2) tournaments I must play at leas 2 tournaments (no more than 1$ buy in prefer freerols with a good payout structure) because i need cath up if I want to reach my 1250$ goal till december 24 3) i put studying in one day instead of small time every day, I found it more useful and I do better in studyin when I have one whole day off just for studies, also helps to relax from tables at least one day

then those rules:
1. to play strich by the basic strategy, NO VARIATION
2. the only moment not to follow strategy - againts good players (not call they all in ect.)
3. every 90 min. - 6 min. break
4. not tilting, poker sucks and suckouts is part of it, think that
you'll win from them in long run
5. Before making a move always to ask 3 questions - my position,
are hands by the chart, what is my (posible) oponents
6. to read only notes, less attention to HUD stats
7. no distraction no web browsing nothing only with small volume music can be allowed during session
8. once again I will follow extremely stric to a strategy, i have to figth all temptations to play different, not now in microstakes I PLAY VERY CONSERVATIVE


So that is now I'll be back on a tables and start again with just 2 tables (because want to develope self discipline to follow strategy) and then every day I will ad one new table till Ill reach 4 tables and then I dont know either go again for 6 tables or play one week -4, one week 5 one week 6, probably will depend on how much I am behind of my limit goals


Anyway the most important lession that I got besides that I need to have breaks in long MTT session is an importan of self discipline and what self discipline really is about. The best it describe the picture below:

SElf discipline in poker is more important than knowledge