Winn/Loss: $2.42
BB: 121.00
BB/100: 8.52
Hands: 1420
MT: 4 tables
had some suckouts, bad play hands ect. but in totally I'm doing a good progress in disciplining myself and playing solid conservative game
Hud stats Had a problem with elepehant which showin numbers for wrong players so I'm playing with no HUD stats, it's so frustrating and I believe I lost because of that too, because can't identify either I'm againts tigth or loose player. If tomorrow it won't fix himself and I won't get any help fro msupporting teams I will switch to free trail of Holdem Manager
Audio Books I found out that it's much better to listen audio books than music while I'm playing in terms of keeping me focus and not bored. Audio books do not put me so on emotions like music and also makes my brains to work, because you need to listen and keep with a book, so my brains are in work position and that helps also to keep shape attention on tables plus I'm learning something on that time while listening so it is really usefull
Go for good hand not good profit Finnaly I'm starting to understand the most improtant rule of poker - you have to make a good moves, the result than is irreliavant, you may loss in a short term but good moves in averange win in long term, so i have to go for good playing and forget the profit. Ofcourse when you set up youresl to live from poker it's hard not to hink about them, but I must, money will come as long as I will think about good plays instead of how much I'm earning
So I wasn't blogging for a whole week and my poker career stucked again.. december 5 was a deadlien for me to reach 100$ but I still have just 10 $ so what was going? Since last session i got crushed for a day and couldn't play then I got sick and needed to stay in bed for few days and in the last 3 days i was back on studying fundamentals of MSS strategy, I'never studies so much in a day like those past days, I attended coaching sessions, finish begginers exam course, watched ALL videos about MSS on pokerstrategy (almost 20 hours material) played some tournaments and that made me realize some of my mistakes and come out with a new schedule and some new playing rules. first of all schedule:
THIS IS MY FINAL SCHEDULE i will not change it till I will reach 1250$ + 600$ for living there is some special points that updaded my previuose schedule: 1. I put coaching sessions, very important and help to develope and get back on a discipline good poker level or to keep it 2) tournaments I must play at leas 2 tournaments (no more than 1$ buy in prefer freerols with a good payout structure) because i need cath up if I want to reach my 1250$ goal till december 24 3) i put studying in one day instead of small time every day, I found it more useful and I do better in studyin when I have one whole day off just for studies, also helps to relax from tables at least one day
then those rules:
1. to play strich by the basic strategy, NO VARIATION
2. the only moment not to follow strategy - againts good players (not call they all in ect.)
3. every 90 min. - 6 min. break
4. not tilting, poker sucks and suckouts is part of it, think that
you'll win from them in long run
5. Before making a move always to ask 3 questions - my position,
are hands by the chart, what is my (posible) oponents
6. to read only notes, less attention to HUD stats
7. no distraction no web browsing nothing only with small volume music can be allowed during session
8. once again I will follow extremely stric to a strategy, i have to figth all temptations to play different, not now in microstakes I PLAY VERY CONSERVATIVE
So that is now I'll be back on a tables and start again with just 2 tables (because want to develope self discipline to follow strategy) and then every day I will ad one new table till Ill reach 4 tables and then I dont know either go again for 6 tables or play one week -4, one week 5 one week 6, probably will depend on how much I am behind of my limit goals
Anyway the most important lession that I got besides that I need to have breaks in long MTT session is an importan of self discipline and what self discipline really is about. The best it describe the picture below:
SElf discipline in poker is more important than knowledge
After such a great first session where I had my peak with 6 $ I was completely crushed at evening session and finnaly end up in minus I have no words. NO WORDS
[] finnaly take beggienrs course exam (forgot to do that)
[] 7 articles summary, to watch 7 videp
[} 84 hours for poker
[] 33600 hands
[] to win 80 $
[] start my blog on pokerstrategy
Got unlucky in beggining with some donk moves that I managed to recognise as donk bets but they got lucky on river or smt then i startet to tild and play like maniac againts tigth players IDIOT I should avoid any confrontation with tigth playes at all, this could been a nice top up to my bankroll, but here you go cant discipline my wish to be a maniac player and become adrenalin maniac - F O L D B A D H A N D S
Tommorow I will play 12 hours, hopefully I'll be better in discipline and will manage to avoid such a stupid mistakes
So a day before yesterday as I wrote I put a task for myself - to understand why am I failing in poker career and what key would unlock a success to me. I was thinking even all night but didn't figure anything significant and magical. There is one simple true about poker or at least how I understand everything. I need just to answer two simple questions -What actions can bring a success for me in Poker? How can I do that? In my view the anwsers are this:
What actions can bring success for me in Poker? There is two simple words to anwser this question - knowledge and discipline The can be separate to other small statemenets: Konwledge:
1) To revise all the posible teory on level by level so well that I am able to esplain it by myself and feel comfortable that i really understant it
2) Always updateing my current knowlede, ther is never a supreme state where i can stop developing and updating knowledge
3) Have a sharp brain and intelligence to be able to adopt my knowledge to a special situation, go beyond theory with many variance.
Discipline:
1) To discipline myself to follow a thin schedule with lots of time for learning and playing poker
2) To discipline myself to give the most of me, energy and focuses while playing or studying.
So the second question - How can I do that?
There was one extremely good advice that I've recieved at pokerstrategy website from a coach just when I started my beginners course - force force FORCE You need to force things to happen.
But to do that you obviuosly need an motivation. I think that there is two way to get motivation - happy and angry. Happy would be ofcourse when you have alot fullfilments in your life -friends a supportive partner, family, have already a stabile and social life, you mtoivated to do things so you can later to impress other or share happiness with them or because they help you and you don't want to despondent them.
Unfortunately I am not in that situation but in complete opposite - Im living far away from my home, isolated from family and forgotten by all friends, in a small shit room, which i hate now and can't afford, as well as i have no money even for food, nothing I hate my situation and that I am closed here, write now i just want to threw up from discusting place that im in and discusting spaggeti that i eat in this month, because of my stupid apartament where you need to pay for shower, i can't now even afford to take a fucking shower. Totally alone and desperate, so here you go the only one thing that left to me how to motivate myself is ANGRY
Angry on my shit situation on that i wasted years and did not achieve anything, angry to quit that and move from that a simple and pure fucking ANGRY
So here it is the anwser how to do that and a key to succes is - TO FEEL STRONG ANGRINESS THAT WILL PUSH ME TO FORCE MYSELF TO GAIN KNOWLEDGE AND DISCIPLINE
And that MUST bring me finnaly from struggle to stability
I won't write more articles on motivation and my depressive situation, but will concentrate on a game and hopefully I wont needed to write that because I will progress, here are some tunes that describes the best my current mood:
WOhooooooooooooooooooooo. I needed to stop playing because I got too exited, in such short time such a good amount, An the most important and why I become so excited is not that I won, but because i finally find how to break througth and start winning or I found the biggest leak in poker carerr so far - I wasn't going for fishes !!!!!!!!!!!! I won now the biggest amount from two fishes, very loose and could play wiht just one Ace+, one was a total manica was always refulling to maximum amount and going all in with everything (probably drunk)
Anyway the importan think is that all those fishes stays in room with biggest av. pot. I ussualy avoid those rooms because they had like 4-6 waiting playes and I wanted to play as soon as psoible so I was picking rooms with biggest av. pot and 0 waiting rooms. A HUGE MISTAKE. It totaly worth to wait because then i got a chance to play against such childrens and it is so easy to get money from them, so from now on I always choose only big av. pot rooms even in that means to wait longer and whenever i feel that room becoem to tigth and not profit I will choose a new room with max. av. pot
Maybe today i was little bit lucky but still the lesson about seeing fish is good as well as to try avoid confrontation with nits or rock, that I learned today too, because my biggest lose even with KK was against nits.
Also it is important to stay focus, I found out that when you start winning you start be exited and that can lead to loose game, very bad, thank go that i have this strategy so whenever i feel to loose i just switch my brains and command them to start focusing on following the strategy and eventually I come down and start to be more concentrated.
My new schedule with reading articles before session also good idea, I found that this helps my brains to switch to poker mood and htinking so on tables I can play better.
But ofcourse the most important new lession is to go for fishes. Fuck yeah
