The end

in one nigth

So this is it my dream is over, now I don't have to worry about poker anymore, only what the best way would be to suicide

16 December + $1.56

Win/loss: + $1.56
BB: 78.00
BB/100: 17.85
Hands: 437
MT: 4 tables

need to play MORE TIME AND HANDS plus to focus more

10 December -3.69$

Win/loss: -3.69$
BB: -184.50
BB/100: -21.30
Hands: 866
MT: 4 tables

Back to where I've been two days ago, huh?

Good news The most of my lost happend because of my fault, so that means that to win still posible I just need to strength my discipline and game by the strategy. I finished to listed Poker mindset audiobook. UNBELIEVABLE good book, really the second the best book that you will ever read/listen in you poker career, i again relearn and understand deeper the importance of patience in poker, theb ook taugth alot about how not to tilt, how always think about long run instead of short wins, how the most importan is the best move and result is irreliaviant and how rollercoaster of winning is the part of poker and need to be calm and wait whil fro long run all the money come back to me, also bad beats? should be happy that bad players wins cause that only will encourage them to play bad again and also I should figth againts temptation to do the same and keep solid game.
Also I sold my photo camera today and got some money so I'll buy some food and my startvation will end, probably that will help to be productive and maybe some electricity cards so I ll be insurant fro mrunning out of electricity and I'll keep the chance to play even 48 hours in a roll
Bad news I have only 16 days left to reach 1250 $ and still on NL2, can it be more embaracing? Pokerstrategy still doesn't work, but I'm thinking to switch to HM2 only when I'll reach Nl4
I need to improve Grind more my games, when river comes a card that can finish flush I should check/fold when I bluff c-bet and get call and have nothing - check/fold I have to beack on my schedule, now I agai nstay up at nigths and sleep at day time, with 4 tables I should play minimum 2000 hands per day, very undiscipline in terms of timetabling. Also have finnaly to take seriuosly 6 minutes break each 90 minutes
What's next? I'll play all nigth on European tables, hoping that nigth factor will benefit me and find some tigther players.. I'll finish if i win +5 pounds (14 in total )then all sunday studying tournaments and at 18:00 coacihin session at 21:00 to play two tournaments +0.5 buy inn. Hoping to win 40$ from both in total. Tournaments now is my last hope to cath up with deadline .....

9.12 +2.08 $

Win/loss: 2.08$
BB:104.00
BB/100: 18.71
Hands: 556
MT: 4 tables

Couldn't avoid a sligth tilting at the end.. played marginal situation plus suckouts and here you go :((

8.12 +2.42

Winn/Loss: $2.42
BB: 121.00
BB/100: 8.52
Hands: 1420
MT: 4 tables
had some suckouts, bad play hands ect. but in totally I'm doing a good progress in disciplining myself and playing solid conservative game

Hud stats
Had a problem with elepehant which showin numbers for wrong players so I'm playing with no HUD stats, it's so frustrating and I believe I lost because of that too, because can't identify either I'm againts tigth or loose player. If tomorrow it won't fix himself and I won't get any help fro msupporting teams I will switch to free trail of Holdem Manager

Audio Books I found out that it's much better to listen audio books than music while I'm playing in terms of keeping me focus and not bored. Audio books do not put me so on emotions like music and also makes my brains to work, because you need to listen and keep with a book, so my brains are in work position and that helps also to keep shape attention on tables plus I'm learning something on that time while listening so it is really usefull

Go for good hand not good profit
Finnaly I'm starting to understand the most improtant rule of poker - you have to make a good moves, the result than is irreliavant, you may loss in a short term but good moves in averange win in long term, so i have to go for good playing and forget the profit. Ofcourse when you set up youresl to live from poker it's hard not to hink about them, but I must, money will come as long as I will think about good plays instead of how much I'm earning

I just won $8.52 in 1.5 hours !! CATCH THOSE M******* FISHES

Win/Loss:
BB: 426.00
BB/100: 204.81
Hands: 208
MT:4 tables
NL2 (0.02 BB)
titpoints: 394
Total bankroll: 20$


WOhooooooooooooooooooooo. I needed to stop playing because I got too exited, in such short time such a good amount, An the most important and why I become so excited is not that I won, but because i finally find how to break througth and start winning or I found the biggest leak in poker carerr so far - I wasn't going for fishes !!!!!!!!!!!! I won now the biggest amount from two fishes, very loose and could play wiht just one Ace+, one was a total manica was always refulling to maximum amount and going all in with everything (probably drunk)

Anyway the importan think is that all those fishes stays in room with biggest av. pot. I ussualy avoid those rooms because they had like 4-6 waiting playes and I wanted to play as soon as psoible so I was picking rooms with biggest av. pot and 0 waiting rooms. A HUGE MISTAKE. It totaly worth to wait because then i got a chance to play against such childrens and it is so easy to get money from them, so from now on I always choose only big av. pot rooms even in that means to wait longer and whenever i feel that room becoem to tigth and not profit I will choose a new room with max. av. pot

Maybe today i was little bit lucky but still the lesson about seeing fish is good as well as to try avoid confrontation with nits or rock, that I learned today too, because my biggest lose even with KK was against nits.

Also it is important to stay focus, I found out that when you start winning you start be exited and that can lead to loose game, very bad, thank go that i have this strategy so whenever i feel to loose i just switch my brains and command them to start focusing on following the strategy and eventually I come down and start to be more concentrated.

My new schedule with reading articles before session also good idea, I found that this helps my brains to switch to poker mood and htinking so on tables I can play better.

But ofcourse the most important new lession is to go for fishes. Fuck yeah

12 november - +1.09 $

MT 4-6 tables MSS NL2

Win/loss + 1.09 $
BB/100 - 1.72
Total BB - 54.50
Hands - 2005
Time - 8 hours
Titan poker points - 292

General I had another fcking roller coaster again, money goes up and down too quickly, but then at the end of the day I managing to play at six tables at once and still to come up even after 2000 hands with a profit, it is still not what im looking for (my goal is 100 bb/1000 hands winrate) but for a start I'll call it achievement.

HUD stats

From that session (what winning rate should be)

VP$PP-7.6 (18-21)
Hand range Flop - 5.4
Open raise Late position - 11.1 (39-46)
3bet -4 (5-6)
Squezee - 2 (5-6)
Fold SB to steal - 95.8
Fold BB to steal - 90.0
Aggresaion Factor - 9.8 (3.6 -5)
Hand range - 1.4
wtSDwsf - 25 (25-29)
W$SD -51.9 (58-61)
w$wf 53.7
Total rake amount - 1.82 $
Big blinds per 100 - 2.7
Amount $ -1.09$
TBB 5.45 $

conclusion even i took a recommend HUD stats from BSS I think it still caunts for MSS and obviuosly my problem is too tight preflop, I folded 90 % of my hands. It can be smthn with multi tabling since when you have many tables open you setled down on comfortable solution to keep folding, this become your main action and helps to stay focus when you not engaged in many activities. I should stop that,I believe i fold good hands too, i will need to keep in mind in the future to keep bigger range of my hands that i play, try to steal blinds more often and not to fold steals. My Aggression factor is so big also because I almost never call, but that is not a problem, i guess in MSS you should have such AF, because that is the strategy - when you play you never call only raise.

new schedule due to the fact that Titan poker has a promotions that after 20 oclock you get 50 % your points and i need to reach 2500 points if I want to cash out, I decided to change my schedule so I'd be playing on that time. Here is new schedul that i feel follow all my last 2011 days:

08-09 - morning walking
09-10 - soem time to sort out any personal stuff (emails ect)
10-13 - poker education (blog about recent session, 1 article, 1 video)
13-14 - lunch
14-24 - 10 hours session 6 tables
24 - tv series, game,
01- sleep and book reading

Since the days go more colder I will stop for a while my jogging (that never worked anyway) and just have morning walk to breath fresh air and to have at least some time away from my apartament

Why break happend? todays is 19 so it menas that 7 days I didn't play poker and could revise my session, what a terrible down moment, why it happen ? Wll at first I got a stupid idea to review every single hand that change my bankroll, maybe not so bad idea and if I would be activy througth all this time i would done that but when i realize how big job this it i startet to put off this job. So my lession should be to remember good quite - it is better doen than perfect. Or maybe after i realize how hard can be to reach 10 BB/100 hands range I started to be depreced and not wanting to play... maybe

Anyway no more low self esteem and low mood and all the rest bulshit, time to start acting and finnaly to break througth the wall and make a living from poker, I decided to live from poker about the start of 2011, cant remember exactly when btu about march defientely and now it is almost a year I did not achieve anything, it is enougth i fed up with that at maximum, i need to win, work hard and live from poker. Period

Ultimate goal to have 10/100 BB winning rate, to reach 1250 $ Bankroll before christmas. And I will reach it. Period

11 november -0.01$

Multabling: 4 NL2 MSS
Win/Loss -0.01 $
BB: -0.50
BB/100: -0.04
Hands: 1116
Time: 6

Total banroll: 28.07
Total titan poker points: 239 (needs 2500 to withraw from that room)

Honestly i was expecting that i will go broke in few hours, but did not happen, so maybe after all even without win iI should be satisfied. I had technical problem in the begging - it's appear that minimum amount that i can take to the table is 1$ so my buy in strategy had to change, also I totaly dont know how to configure autobuy for minimum buy in cause when I did put auto rebuy stack it always rebuys me to maximum amount (5$), but not so big problem cause manual way is simple and maybe better.

In total I really like Medium stack strategy. It is agressive and you lose smaller, of course win also smaller then BSS but as for begginer it is a perfect balance. I had a complete rolly coast on my bankroll, some lost were because of my msitakes, like played with hands that shouldn't by the strategy, other lost were by following strategy. Anyway I'ms still learning and soemtimes mistake raising chart for 3 betting try to steal with not suited Ace small kicker, playing hand out of position and ect. I noted all my concerns and will try to look back to articles and fix leaks now.

Even if I played nto 10 but 6 hours (1 hour lost because of longer job application procedure, then on a lunch time toook a nap, because didnt slept all nigth) I still feel that i done good job and counted first day succesfull, 19 left